When sleep won't come

Everyday when Jake and Zoe get home from school, it becomes rush hour around here. I have Jane to amuse who is usually pretty good about watching tv and leaving us alone but not always and I have homework to do with Zoe and Jake. We do worksheets and other assignments and make and use flashcards to study for tests and quizzes. I actually learn a lot of things I had forgotten by doing this but it is like waiting tables on a busy Saturday night juggling between the three of them and then of course there is dinner to be cooked and served. Then start the showers and the nightime reading and the tuck ins. Lately this week, I have been getting headaches around 2:30-3:30 and taking ibuprofen and drinking a cup of coffee was helping until the ibuprofen really upset my stomach the other night and made me nauseous and I still had the headache. It was absolutely miserable because it happened early enough in the afternoon that I still had to help people study, cook and serve dinner, clean up afterwards and wait to do tuck ins. So yesterday, I didn't drink any coffee nor did I take any ibuprofen. I did have a headache but it was fairly mild but I got all buzzy and panicky. I don't know if the trying to juggle so many balls in the air is what brought it on or what but it keeps happening this time of evening/night. Will is out of town this week in Canada on business and maybe I am worried that everything is going to overwhelm me or that I won't be able to do it. Maybe I am afraid that Jake or Zoe are going to spin out of control and I am not going to be able to get them to accomplish what needs to be done. Whatever the case, I am really disappointed and totally sick of it. Panic attacks suck and I hate having them. I get freezing and scared and my heart races. Fortunately I have gotten better at dealing with them and can function through them. I just do a lot of breathing and talking to myself and snuggling with Jane always helps immensley. I wonder what today will bring and am almost afraid to ask. Will be glad when Will gets home but that won't be until very late Saturday night after the kids have gone to bed.