Back in the Saddle Again

Reviving this blog because it has the name I want to use and I like the background and stuff.  Just looking at the pictures I have posted on here makes me really sad because of how much has changed since I posted them there.  When you have kids, you learn that the days are long but the years are very, very short.  So I guess you are all wondering why I called you here together.   I think I was thinking that I would start a blog where I would talk about the things I know something about.  So those things are parenting and marriage, depression and anxiety, art, writing and design, and working from home.  Oh by the way I am writing this in my pajamas.  It's only a little after nine in the morning so I guess I am still within an acceptable time for one to still be in their pjs but the things is, I may never get dressed.  And I'm okay with that.  Staying at home has turned out to be pretty challenging for me.  I thrive when working as part of a creative team so being home all day, alone while the kids are at school gets pretty darn depressing.  I must admit that I have purposefully slept the day away before out of sheer loneliness and boredom.  When I have work to do, I do much better.  Sometimes I even get dressed.  But seriously, having an assignment to work on always lifts my spirits and gives some sort of structure to my day.  On days like today, there are a thousand things that I could do but this fact just overwhelms the crap out of me and I might end up doing a whole lot of nothing instead.  I could watch online tutorials on how build web pages and mobile apps or I could finish organizing Jane's room or I could write some pieces for Text Broker or I could finish the infiniti scarf I started for Jane's teacher's Christmas present.  I could finish making the content maps I started last week or I could go through the craft bins and clean them out or I could finally start a blog.  So I guess I'm doing a little better today than I was thinking I would do since I am actually sitting here writing this now.  Most of you know that I've been looking for a job for the last four years with no luck.  I have had a couple of really shit jobs in between but never anything full time that paid well and was in my field.  I'm up for a couple of positions right now and I hope one of them pays off-sort of.  On the other hand, I am thinking about homeschooling Zoe next semester so I shouldn't be looking for work outside of the home at all.  Ugh!  I feel torn about what to do but ultimately know that I will make the right choice for her.  I don't really mind the working from home if only I could make enough money to be able to get out of here every once in a while and go to a museum or something.  So anyway, that's the way it is right now. Guess I will go do one of those other things I said I should do now.  Unless I decide to go back to bed instead.